I wasn’t prepared…but here I am

I haven’t had enough time to make a post lately…or at least I always thought so. It’s 3:30 AM today but I can’t sleep due to various things happen lately that really distract my attention. So here I am, making this post

You know, lots of things have changed in the past 3 years. Things were looking good sometimes but I always remember the days when I had nothing, when I screamed at God and asked “how will you pay my hard work?”…These days, sometimes I feel that kind of situation haunts me back. I work hard, really. I plan hard, really. And I also try to diversify my attention by going to a language course and still try to refresh myself sometimes by playing with my friends. But it looks like things are going down for me. I know there’ll be a light at the end of tunnel but I just feel tired with the daily work circle that keeps distracting my attention in living my life.

Well, I have to admit..I wasn’t prepared. I wasn’t prepared to become what I am today. I just wasn’t prepared enough. I do regret it but everyone has their own regrets. I learn so much lately and I know I still need to learn much more in order to be “prepared” in my own level.

I remember the day when I lost few hundred bucks in my saving account which left me only $10 with an old PC and a very poor internet connection. I cried. Nobody heard though ..Then I started to 100% focus on what I was doing and I know I had a big achievement. A very big jump, I must say. Well, now I feel the same pressure although it is for different reasons. I hope with this pressure, it’ll help me maximize my potential so I can achieve what I want and what I need. I live to win, not to not lose. By losing once or twice, it’ll pump my motivation to achieve even more in my life. Well anyway, thanks for reading.